I often sit by the window,
I wonder where I went wrong.
Life keeps throwing curve balls at me
I really can't keep being this strong.
I feel like the breeze flowing by,
As if it's always out for a roam,
Likewise- my mind's all over the place,
And i never feel at home.
Well you see, i made my home a person,
Who's within my reach yet so damn far,
I break myself so i dont break him,
Pondering over how many more miserable days there are.
He came in my life as a feeling of warmth,
I drown my pillow in waves of tears till dawn,
Falling in this bottomless pit of doom,
My peace is already way too far gone.
Picking myself up every now and then,
Only to fall apart worse than before...
Love got this blindfold on me,
And i kind of like being in the dark more.
Am i helpless, yes maybe
I definitely should know better
But meanwhile i am addicted to this merciless drug,
Hoping and praying it doesn't kill me later.
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